Baby Fever! Uh Oh!

Today while Hayden was napping (which is a very RARE moment, he NEVER naps) I decided to look at some old pictures, lately I have been having BABY FEVER, which after Hayden's birth I thought I would never have! TRAUMATIZING!  But lately I have been thinking about newborns, and how sweet it would be to hold a newborn again, and have a baby in the house. Hayden hardly seems like a "baby" anymore. He is getting more independant, and is growing like a WEED! It is crazy, how I wish the I had the time back! I thought that the pictures would maybe take baby off my brain! But it didn't! Here are a couple of my favorites!

He would always sleep like this!

I would go into his room and just watch him, it was so peaceful! Now when I try to do that, he hears me and shoots up and wants to play! Crazy kid! :)

When he was teething, he loved to suck and chew on Adrian's nose! Kinda gross, but cute!

Daddy reading Hayden a book, this was the first time where he actually paid attention, and looked at the pictures!

So peaceful!

I miss his newborn cry!

Little Gentleman!

I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY miss the days where I could just cuddle him, or he would fall asleep in my arms, or he needed me all the time (of course he still needs me, but he is getting more independent!) Don't get me wrong I love the stage he is now, but I wish I had a baby in the house again.

When I graduated everyone around me, well not everyone but the majority was going to school to get thier "dream" career. I was never like that, sure I still went to school and got a Certificate for a career. But it was never something that I desired, my desire was to be a stay home mom and have a ton of kids running around in the house. My dream was to have supper ready for when my hubby came home. My dream was to have a clean, well decorated home. My dream was to change diapers. My dream was to do 10000 loads of laundry a day. My dream was to help my children with thier homework and go to Parent/teacher interviews. I know it is NOT for everyone, but honestly I can say now for the first time in my life this is what I have always wanted and I feel that I am finally at the place where God has wanted me to be! 

So, in conclusion, maybe the Baby fever will never go away. Maybe I will become the next Michelle Dugger! :) I HIGHLY doubt that, 19 kids is a little too much!

I will be thankful and blessed with whatever God blesses us!